im back

This of course is not a picture of me. however it is a picture of what i believe i feel now that this year has past. i have decided to start posting again most sundays-just once a week to let y'all know what i have been up to and how i am truth fully feeling about my training and eating and goals. I have had a real learning curve this year. I had so little confidence in myself at the start of this year that I actually paid many peopl through the nose to help me with my goals to competing in ANB Novice figure. I felt that I didnt have enough support and could not rely on my own knowledge and experience of my body, conditions, training or dieting and that someone who didnt know me from a bar of soap would have a better idea. in the end the people who helped me through the most were my friends such as you dear readers, who listened to me fears and gave advice and suggestions of how to keep on truckin. In the laof comp prep time I got colitis-see my conditions. it was faily untimely but if it was going to happen it was going to happen then. I had been taking many supplements to help me through the competition prep and they played havoc with my liver and caused an "epsiode", along with the stress of putting so much pressure on myself mentally and emotionally. Long story short I got up on stage bloated and having not gone to the loo both ways for more than 3-7 days. it was nothing short of a nightmare. however i tried to make lemonade out of lemons and enjoy the day for what it was, and met many people and leanr tmany things about how to and what not to do on the day itself.....
next time i compete I all i will have had to do is train and diet hard and smart enough to get there. I am thinking of taking a year off and training to gain...trialling different food plans to suit me and programmes, anything as long as it is intense will be bound to help in some way.
Yesterday was my birthday (30 with gst!!!!)and timmy my hubby took me to sophias in camberwell, and i had the hugest chicken schnitzel and then a white hot mocha chocolate at glorious jeans...it was a good day. To top it off, just beofre bed i came into the kitchen and timmy had set out a bday card, some beautiful presents and a lovely mug that said i love you and a poem.
this meant alot to me as the last week even till the time before i came on he thought i was going to do sportsmodel division. But I did figure and i wanted him to be so proud of me. I was to saythe least highly strung and dissapointed the day after and fairly depressed(mainly because i was so tired). But as i said i can turn all negatives into positives in the future.

Including the fact that i will be going to an info night at MBS Wednesday night and also seeing the head judge of ANb to personally speak to him about my comp diet and planning an off season mass gain diet:)

So here are my stats-its been one week since comp
i am 5kg and currently doing a 6 day split with one day off
chest shoulders, wuads glutes, back bi, chest shoulders, hamms glutes, back tris, cardio.
i aslo do cardio 3 x 30 min intense thru the week and 1-2 pole dancing classes/practices. i will be using that to help bring growth into my back as i have a pole at home too.

speaking of home i will need to depart because my kitty flute is under the weather and i really need to chillax with her.

i will be going to wbool next weekedn for a wedding-thnkfully the anb comp in sydney was going to be on the same date so i had planned annual leave anyway:)

if anyone ids out there that knows of Muscle and body shape and can tell me a bit about how they felt please contact me:)

yours true
jewlie girl!!!!!